Thursday, October 28, 2004
i do understand how many people out there dislike IJ. no. DISLIKE is too mild a term. how about HATE hey? well fuck, just read this. there's nothing to like or dislike about the school. it's just a fucking school. so leave it be. can this simple shit penetrate into that thick numbskull of yours? i'm afraid not. impudent bit of rubbish, you.

so what if you feel that some people are bimbos, bitches, bastards or assholes? keep that filth to yourself all right. you don't have to let everyone know. just keep your damn comments to yourselves. just keep that gaping hole in the lower part of your face shut. no one asked you how you felt. so just shut the fuck up.

if you know those are just rumours. then just shut up. no one told you to spread that fallacious piece of crap yes? you won't know if it's true unless you have evidence to go with it. otherwise, they are just rumours. yes? aww, damn. you still don't get it. since you've gotten all your fucking morals fucked up. just go to your mama. i'm sure she'll be so glad to help you get on the right track. have a great life ahead. take care. and just shut up.

--Aunt Agony at 10:14 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
heya~ all right. hmmmm. what is it again? oh yes. netball carnival coming up! go all secondary two classes! heck the sec. ones. lol. okay.. just 2 more days? oh my. aaaaah. i'm so scared. i find it so lame how they give us only abt 3 or 4 days to prepare the players for the carnival? it's too short a time! ah well ~shrugs. gotta live with it. GO 2/7!

--Aunt Agony at 7:17 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
MICHAEL THEROUX. WAKE UPPPPPP.

nah, i won't delete it meow. oh my. everything's the matter. i'm so useless. haha. can't do anything for nuts. ah well. badminton. errm. wet? kenna drenched? poor ally, aaron, marilyn, and pope! haha. all drenched. pray y'all won't get sick k? and aaron! good for you that you got your wallet back. yep. oh well. i love the rain! yeap. so fun. i love the rain! matches how i'm feeling exactly.

aii. hahaha. got a lot on my mind now. don't know where to start. shall i start with my grades then? oh yes. i failed a paper. and scraped through the rest. tell me, how wonderful it is right? wow. that's like what i've always wanted. wo0t. my dream man. hahaha. yeesh. 美梦成真。yeah right.. hahahaha. how i wished. fat hope. no chance. ah vell. i'm such a disappointment. such a letdown. such a.. moron. haha.

everything's all tangled up now. numb! haha. wish i could stay that way forever. aii. i can only think of my grades now. don't know how to face my parents. heckit. it'll be over soon. haha. i pray.

--Aunt Agony at 9:49 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
hey girl, what is the matter ?
you're crying your heart out again
don't lie, girl
this was not some accident
your bruises, they give you away
your face sighs in shade of blue purple
your eyes tell a story of pain

hey, okay this song doesn't really relate. but it means something ? i guess. must be the weather, everyone's been in terrible moods ): nothing to look forward to already. damn. anyhow, please try to relax dear. -FORCES GRIN, you try too okay ! haha. sighs, people in my school suck. i really bren you alot alot alot alot ):

- your meow
( you have permission to delete after reading )
--Aunt Agony at 8:16 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
MICHAEL THEROUX. WAKE UP.

AARON NG JUN HE. GET WELL SOON LA! GET YOURSELF OUT OF THAT BLASTED PLACE. JUST GET WELL WE'LL ALL BE PRAYING FOR YOU.

TASHA TASHA. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! LOVE YA LOADS BABE. HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOURSELF.

TING! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~ HAHAHA. LOVE YA TOO. TAKE CARE AIITE?

yep. okay.. hmmm. stuff are as per normal. family. bah. talk to the hand. thanks al and jaz for being there =) -HUGS- sorry for bothering y'all. yeap. okay so on to stuff.. haha. had a damn lot of fun at the hospital today. first off, went to get aaron. talked crap for a bit in his ward. then went down to the food junction. sweeeeet. started taloking crap again. then i have no idea how the topic went on to having sexual intercourse. and yes, i'm using the correct term for it. ah boy ah (not aaron, just protecting the person. LOL.), when will you learn? you can't go around the istana seducing people and getting them to have sexual intercourse with you? even the first lady? like HELLO AH! as if you can get past the guards. yeah sure, go seduce the guards la. what are you huh, A LOOSE ASS?? lol. hahaha. use a CONDOM-INIUM. yes? GOOD BOY!

okie dokes. then played with the nail buffer. and after greg bought drinks, he went out for awhile, no idea what he wanted to do. LEMON TEA. then jaz suggested to put salt in his cup of lemon tea. aaron, being himself, went to the drinks store, and put four dashes of salt into the cup of lemon tea? whoa. some shit concoction. he drank it. said he tastes like sour plum.

oh well. marilyn and i stayed for a good 3 hours. the rest stayed for about 2 hours plus. yeap. pray aaron'll get well soon. yep.

soon after went to meet my mum. sat in the car. rubbish came out. period. got back home. so here i am =) yep. okie dokie. nothing much happened tdy la. hahaha.

--Aunt Agony at 9:45 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
i don't care. i don't give a shit. i don't give a damn. just get away from me. and i won't bother you at all. i won't be an irritant to anyone. i won't diss you now. so yeah. oh yeah and everyone, my phone's gone, so don't bother calling or text messaging me. anymore. call my house or something if there's anything. or e-mail or any other form of communication, other than the mobile phone. things aren't exactly going great now so yeah. please. understand. i can't just cheer up by having people telling me to cheer up. words are just too simple. i just can't cheer up. don't y'all get it?

mike? don't leave us.. wake up. please. you don't want the coma do you? we all need you. now. don't give up. your family needs you. i need you. be strong.. and we all love you. i know you can't read this.. but i pray that you'll know, i'm there. so miss theroux, if you happen to come by here.. if there's any news about his condition. i need to know. send me an e-mail please? thank you so much. mike.. please. don't go.

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simple plan- welcome to my life.
do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel out of place?
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understands you
do you ever wanna runaway?
do you lock yourself in your room?
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels all right
you don't know what it's like
to be like me

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
with no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
welcome to my life

do you wanna be somebody else?
are you sick of feeling so left out?
are you desperate to find something more?
before your life is over
are you stuck inside a world you hate?
are you sick of everyone around?
with their big fake smiles and stupid lies
while deep inside you're bleeding

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels all right
you don't know what it's like
to be like me

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
with no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like
welcome to my life

no one ever lied straight to your face
no one ever stabbed you in the back
you might think I'm happy
but I'm not gonna be okay
everybody always gave you what you wanted
never had to work it was always there
you don't know what it's like what it's like

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
with no one's there to save you
no you don't know what it's like,
what it's like [x2]
welcome to my life [x3]

--Aunt Agony at 8:00 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
argggggggggggh. exams are over. whoopee. wow. ooo. i don't care. hahaha. yeap. guess i can slack now? ~shrugs~ ain't got school on monday and tuesday. so how am i gonna celebrate? sleep. that seems really nice. mhmmm. -shrugs- badminton? -shrugs- movie? -shrugs- oh my. okay off the topic, gtg, update later then.

--Aunt Agony at 9:30 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
blank. toots. why? no idea. =S horrible. science and chinese paper one tomorrow. i'm so not psyched up for them. hope they'll quickly pass by. can't wait for friday! CHARISMATIC! shall i go for mass? since i end sooooo early? hmmmmmm.. aah heck it. will consider on friday.
.. sigh~ feel so weird now. don't know why. ='( am i a hazard to my own self? why is it this way? why am i always hanging? why am i like, so shit screwed? why? i can't think straight. everything's going out of the way. am i trying to avoid some stuff? what is it i'm avoiding? huh? WHAT THE HECK IS IT? i'm not who i used to be anymore? am i becoming anti-social? what the heck. i'll worry about this shit another time. exams first priority.

--Aunt Agony at 8:37 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
what?! its only monday?! what the heck?! felt like 1 whole week's gone by.. hahaha. i know i enjoyed myself today! [ ahem, if you know what i mean. ] oh. just slept. so? what's it gonna do to me? kill me? maybe. my heart will go on.. my body stays. i'm not making much sense these days, please bear with me. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!! iloveyou~ =) <3 okay. mathematics paper's over~ i feel so liberated and freeeeeeeeeee. a load of my mind. I LOVE LIT! i want miss liem to teach us next year.. hey hold on a sec. i didn't even choose lit as one of me subjects. oopsy daisy. LOL. sigh~. i'm mellowing out again. ain't high anymore. panadol? =) [ hint^2 ally and jaz. LOL. ] okie dokie. blog some other timeeeeeeeeee. love y'alllllllll. leave a msggggggggg.

--Aunt Agony at 8:26 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
when you feel all alone
and the world has turned its back on you
give me a moment please
to tame your wild wild heart

i know you feel like
the walls are closing in on you
it's hard to find relief
and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door
and you feel like you can't take anymore

let me be the one you call
if you jump i'll break your fall
lift you up and fly away
with you into the night
if you need to fall apart
i can mend a broken heart
if you need to crash then crash and burn
you're not alone

when you feel all alone
and a loyal friend is hard to find
you're caught in a one way street
with the monsters in your head
when hopes and dreams are far away and
you feel like you can't face the day

let me be the one you call
if you jump i'll break your fall
lift you up and fly away
with you into the night
if you need to fall apart
i can mend a broken heart
if you need to crash then crash and burn
you're not alone

cause there has always been heartache and pain
and when it's over you'll breathe again
you'll breathe again

let me be the one you call
if you jump i'll break your fall
lift you up and fly away
with you into the night
if you need to fall apart
i can mend a broken heart
if you need to crash then crash and burn
you're not alone


OKAY, invasion from the meow. as long as you know who i am (: sighs, my life has been pretty much screwed up too. okay, not saying your life is screwed but yeah ): i have alot of things i want to tell you, haha, just don't know how to tell you. i mean i know you won't tell anyone, but aiya, i still feel weird. anyhow, just do your best for your eoys ok ! my parents like to drag me down too ): keep insisting that i'll be kicked out of the sch with my results. i feel bad know, cos you're always here for me. i love you ! -hug

(( MEOW )) - rooooo

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i'm busting my brains already yes? and i just can't absorb anything! so what if you don't see me study at home? that doesn't mean that i don't study! i'm useless, i'm a piece of trash. yes. just leave it that way. i'm a failure. i can't do anything right. i can't even memorise all the math formulae. so? SUE ME. and the Math exam is on monday. yeah. i know. i already told you. I'M USELESS. i can't even finish studying. yes. once again. I'M USELESS. so leave me be. you've still got your son to make you proud yes? bring in the glorious A level results. i can't live up to his or rather your standards. and 2002. i still haven't forgotten what you've told me all right. just cos i didn't do as well as your son did. you just had to put me down. i can only do what's within my reach. and that's that. and YEAH. i'm an absent minded freak. so? i can't remember what i've just studied. so? what're you gonna do. what CAN you do. huh. tell me. piano exams are coming up at the end of the month too. yeah. you don't believe i can do it? you think i can't pass? just leave it as that. okay? i strike you as lazy. then be that way! at least i know i've tried. so what are you gonna do huh? TELL ME. i'm just a freak and can't do anything right. so. that's that. if i can't get into the combi class of my choice? what can you do. what can i do? i can't do anything! i can't live up to your expectations. yes, i'm a lousy prefect. who's got the worst results ever. right? that's what i am RIGHT? you just blow up in my face yeah? huh? do you need a monitor reading of what i'm doing 24/7? i know you'd love that. i just know it. i know you just want me to do well in my exams.. but yeah. i'm trying my best. i'm sorry if i can't deliver the results that you want. i'm really sorry.. and i'm real screwed up now. so leave me be.

--Aunt Agony at 4:31 PM
Monday, October 04, 2004
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! eoys are on their way.. oh man. 6 more days till the math paper. DIE LA. oh man. and congrats joyce! good for you! so smart arh someone first for math in class. tsk tsk. hei ma. lol. yeaaaaap. and i missed school today! was just rotting at home. argh. and slacking around. not that i intended to do it. didn't feel well. at all. oh vell. going back to school tomorrow. i love studying! so damn fun. study till you drop. yeah.. sigh. can't wait for the eoys to be over. then off i go. CHIONG. oh crap. oh man. will be going off the hong kong on 4th december? haii. gonna miss everyone! but i'll be gone for a week only. so not to worry =D i'll be back. can't wait to study~ oh well. not today. and i wanna go for the inner healing rally @ CTK! i'll be there on wednesday.. haha. starts at 7.30pm and ends at 10pm. you are encouraged to attend this session. from today till wednesday. yeap. in the main church. oh my.. k then. i'll blog some other time. love y'all! <3

--Aunt Agony at 7:31 PM